A Case of You

These lines were written by Joni Mitchell, and I think they are beautiful and incredibly sad. They incapsulate my feelings right now...

Just before our love got lost
you said
I am as constant as a northern star
And I said, constant in the darkness
Wheres that at?
If you want me Ill be in the bar

On the back of a cartoon coaster
In the blue tv screen light
I drew a map of Canada
Oh Canada
And your face sketched on it twice

Oh you are in my blood like holy wine
Oh and you taste so bitter but you taste so sweet
Oh I could drink a case of you
I could drink a case of you darling
And I would still be on my feet
Oh Id still be on my feet

Oh I am a lonely painter
I live in a box of paints
Im frightened by the devil
And Im drawn to those ones that aint afraid
I remember that time that you told me, you said
Love is touching souls
Surely you touched mine
Cause part of you pours out of me
In these lines from time to time

Oh you are in my blood like holy wine
And you taste so bitter but you taste so sweet
Oh I could drink a case of you
I could drink a case of you darling
Still Id be on my feet
And still be on my feet

I met a woman
She had a mouth like yours
She knew your life
She knew your devils and your deeds
And she said
Color go to him, stay with him if you can
Oh but be prepared to bleed

Oh but you are in my blood
youre my holy wine
Oh and you taste so bitter, bitter and so sweet
Oh I could drink a case of you darling
Still Id be on my feet
Id still be on my feet

The End of an Era

I am sure there are some of you that have fallen over to see that I have posted here...but things have been a bit stressed lately.
It is with great sadness that I report that I am no longer The Boyfriend...yes, it is true...I am single again.
Through no fault of either of us, we have decided to part ways. It is for the best, but that does not mean that there is not a great deal of heart break and pain involved.
Some of you may be able to relate to this: you can love somebody with your entire soul, and know that you are not good for them. You can love a person, and know that you are not what they need, and they are not what you need. There is no fault in that-it is what it is.
The worst thing any person can do is to be unhappy. Life is far too short.
So...we pick up the pieces and go on. Or try to at least.
I gave a great deal of thought to whether or not I should change the name of the blog, delete it all, and forget about it. I decided to leave it as it is, and to continue to add select messages. Why not? Writing is supposed to have a cathartic effect, so I am going to use this forum to express the inner turmoil I am experiencing. We will see what happens...
One question that I will throw out to the blog universe is this:
How do you fall in love with someone that is completely incompatible for you?
I have been wrestling with this concept for an age now...clever and mysterious are the workings of the heart I suppose.
I should warn readers that some of my subsequent posts may have harsh concepts, bitterness, and vitriol involved...
Guess that is what purging is for.
More on all of this later